totally exhausted...

well, back after all the boredom in CNY, sigh... have been working on monday and tuesday. also a bit angry with my manager. she NEVER told me i am working on monday at cineleisure and then on monday, while i was watching anime on my brother's pc, she called me to go to work. then i rushed to work from my house and i got scolded by my dad.

after reaching cineleisure, my manager also saw me and then she blamed me for not being focused. HELLO!!! YOU NEVER STATE I AM WORKING ON MONDAY AND THEN YOU GIVE ME THIS KIND OF TREATMENT?! YOU'RE THE IRRESPONSIBLE ONE! YOU ONLY TOLD ME I'M WORKING ON TUESDAY IN YOUR SMS!

then worked until closing. wah, cineleisure is one busy outlet. so many customers. they just keep on coming. when it's time for closing, i was really pissed off by one of the manager there. she is really naggy! a bit out of place, nag. not properly swept, nag. a little dirt on table, nag. wah. really want to yell at her for this man. then all of us were retained and we missed the last train. wow, thanks lady. so no choice, 4 of us shared a company cab to go home. then she did another thing that made me angrier. she should be the one handing us money to pay for the trip but instead, a chef gave us money to take a cab home. it's like, what is this? retained us and not giving us money to go home? what kind of manager are you? sigh... never mind, it's the past already.

tuesday was better. we managed to finish everything on time. haha, saw Vivian and her friend.(Vivian is one of the ministry IC in my ministry) nothing much happened but i was very tired.

i never visited my relatives or friends for CNY. this is one boring year. sigh, still, went to river ang pao with my brother and father. we had fermented beancurd (aka. smelly tofu) which was yummy! haha. while i was eating it, i looked around to check out on people's expression. haha, it really was amazing how people reacted. some just ignore, some ran away, while some stopped and went to the stall to buy. well, the smell is unbearable indeed. but i find it quite pleasent(in a way) to the nose. the smell is not as bad as the stall in geylang. wah, the geylang one is a lot more 'aromatic'. haha...

then went to see what other stalls are selling. my brother found a pewter necklace and so he bought it. $5 only! so cheap. sigh, wanted to buy a nice-looking cross pendant but then never bring money out. wanted to ask my dad to buy but i was afraid he might scold me for it. so decided not to buy. sigh...

i was also quite emotionally down these few days. really feel so awkward and lost. also had some serious mood swings. sigh, i wanted to buy so many things but then, so many expenses depend on me now. my parents usually dislike me for being christian and so they will like not talk to me and when they talk to me, they are always talking me out of being one. but now, when they cannot pay their bills, they always talk to me nicely, ask me to help them pay their bills this and that. it's like i'm some kind of plaything for them. when they need me, they always near me. and when they don't need me, they just cast me aside and and ignore me. it really pains me seeing them treat me like this.

sigh, really exhausted. emotionally, physically and mentally. i really need a long rest. maybe a good sleep will do.