another of those shockers for the year

really stunned to make 2 posts today. sometimes, you really will never expect things to happen. sigh. oh well, i still felt that i am going to be a bit financially tight this year. sigh. i really have to sacrifice many things to make ends meet.

first off, things that i'm going to sacrifice:

1. modifying my guitar's bridge. (i'll postpone it until further notice.)
2. new clothes will have wait. (sigh... when will i be able to buy new apparels?)


why am i making these sacrifices? well, it's due to a series of unfortunate events. sigh. my mother is not in singapore now and she'll only come back after CNY. worst of all. practically, i'll be paying for most of the household bills these months. it's like all of the sudden, my savings is reduced to nuts. this is really a bit upsetting. but it can't be helped. my money has always been the household emergency reserve. i'll have to chip in money whenever the family needs it. sigh... really want to buy a lot of things, for myself and the family. now all my plans have been ruin within a day. sigh...

i'm really feeling troubled. sigh. one more boring CNY again to add along with the past 2 to 3 years.

also had a wake up call just now. God sure is amazing. He reminded me of what Brother Meng Chin and Brother John See told me before. really got one heck of a wake up call. i really got to buck up seriously. i really am beginning to feel that i am succumbing to my flesh already. the feeling now is like i'm confused, doubtful, stressed and alone. why are things turning out this way? sigh...

now, my plans are to salvage myself and to restore it to it's maximum potential. still, i don't give up so easily.