Need to really get things off my chest

for the past few days, i have been either slacking or dazing around. really. also some matters also made me a bit upset. oh well, maybe a summary of just from saturday to sunday will do for this post. sigh, really got not much to write.


SATURDAY
of course, my typical weekly procedure. visit the elderly in my ministry! woo hoo! really love to see them and most of all, they have an outing this week! to ken ken cuttlefish, bengawan solo, and kong guan 'pao'(or something else, can't remember the name.) factories in woodlands! hurray. i was so keen on going on this outing with the elderly. and then, reached old airport road, NOT A SINGLE SOUL was there. i was dumbfounded. so, i called my ministry IC and guess what, he forgot that i could help out in ministry! oh gosh! why did this happened to me? totally shocked man. i got left out. so, disappointed, i decided to go to the Expo immediately. sigh, don't want to go home and change le. so stayed around Expo for an agonising period of 5h! wah... so lonely... only about 3.30pm, Desmond appeared with 2 more cell members. wow. at last, company. so, stayed around with them and left to meet the rest as Desmond is bringing them to BS.

then in service, Pastor really preached something that i agree with. our words determine our world. really people are attracted to what you say. you speak foul language, bad company is attracted to you. you speak good words, people with good characteristics will be attracted to you. haha... i somehow also was reminded how my mouth made my world in the past. i was so negative. and now, i really changed for the better already.( although i'm not reeally positive with my mouth, i'm still learning to become more and more positive everyday.)


SUNDAY
got nothing to do practically this day. haha, now i got 2 bibles. 1 which i received on saturday for completing my bible last year. yeah... so, being curious, i read both of them. hmm... the new one has a more simple translation. so, this year, i'm supposed to use a more simple version? maybe so. still, i think i'll use both of them to cross refer to each other. haha... social studies.

then went out with with my dad and my brother to bugis to buy some new year goodies. had some lunch in rochor food centre. i sure can eat. had a big plate of 'hor fun', a cup of soya milk and had banana milkshake for dessert. i'm so greedy. haha. then went home first to skate with Deyu and meet up with Daniel Mah.

went skating for awhile. woo hoo. learnt to jump with my scooter. yeah. then we head for my house to chill and for me to change, i got a dinner at night. sigh. not to forget, Deyu jumped with my scoot and caused the rear wheel to bend sideways! ouch... my poor scooter! had a hard time bending it back to shape.

finally, night falls and time to head to the CHCSA appreciation dinner. although it rained in the evening. i managed to reach Paya Lebar before 6.45pm. haha... instead of meeting up with Benjamin, i bumped into some other cell group members and some others from the MJ zone. so, i went with them instead. sorry Ben! :p

when we reached the restaurant, we were allocated to our designated seats. so, couldn't sit with the rest of the MJ people. also had some performances. wow, 'The Trio'! they sure know their stuff. they even played 'wake me up when september ends' with just an er-hu, guitar and indian drum. salute them, people! haha...

what really bothered me most is just that why can't sometimes people just don't bug me with what i really dislike. that is, taking my picture. for some reason, they just kept on wanting to take my picture. of course, i rejected most of it. i did made some exceptions. still, you need not go to the extent to say that i'm a spoilsport. yes, i agree that i may have spoiled your mood and the fun, but did you consider about my feelings? if you hate cockroaches and then someone place a cockroach beside you, assuredly you'll do whatever to get it away. so, here's my point. i don't like my picture taken, so i'll do what i can to avoid being taken. sigh... really feel so awkward. i'm weird. let's just put things in lay man's term.

then i went home alone. really want to ponder over things. yes, i was angry. i just kept silent. yes, sad but i kept silent. really did quite an amount of reflecting on my behaviour and actions. sigh... i bit out of words for now. words could not express the fustration i have now.