Disappointments and confusion

wow, sure has been a seriously long time since my last entry. well, just realy felt like a useless bum these days. although i know what i am doing. still, i'm impulsive in my actions.

well, enough of the bad stuff. i finally understood what is meant by not to dwell in the past. so, i'm not going to go into details with what i faced these days.

well, for the past week, it's work, attachments and guitar. not really much excitement.

BUT, things changed on saturday. guest performance by Delirious? in service! they rock the gospel music world! really love their songs. they're one of the best gospel bands! i just bought their new ablum today. haha... Delirious?, keep on impacting lives ya!

then on sunday, sigh... headache ah! really angered by my actions. i found myself really stupid. sigh, kept on letting my tongue slip and say stupid things. i already thought on what i wanted to say but suddenly, i speak something else and dang! caused myself to act like a fool.

then went for work and today at work it's like everyone was in a bad mood. hmm... it's scary, you know! i'm not sure if i was the one in a bad mood or everyone was. sigh... never mind about it already, time to move on.

speaking of which, as i type this post, i can find myself a bit like more mature than how i was in the past. well, in the past, i always speak foolishly and never really thought it through before i speak. thus, i am always getting corrected by people. now, i know what am i supposed to speak and try to speak in a appropriate way that is not offensive or negative. but still, i sometimes will let my tongue slip accidentally.(just like yesterday, my mouth sure is a monster. no wonder God did say in His Word that what we say determines how we are inside. Matt 15:11)

sigh. no one's born mature. so, another new year resolution, i will learn to be a mature person everyday, every hour, every minute and second.

overall, thanks to those who have helped me come this far to be a better person than how i was before. well, i got a lot of people to thank... so i think i'll create a post tomorrow to thank them. love you people.

lastly, God's Great!(sorry to steal your line, ben :S)