a day without mood to do anything

i feel literally wrecked today. i really don't want to do anything. i'm mood-less.

well, last night's coaching is not really of much help for the spelling bee competition. the coach only wants us to listen and pronounce the words and try to figure out how to spell the words by ourselves. sigh. i guess it was a waste of time. also, met Jenna from N239(or E369?) during the coaching and then we went home together.

well, she was quite busy with her long lost friends and they were talking about JC life which i totally am ignorant to.(i really am an idiot when it comes to JC issues) so they talked about JCs and MI, and, i am somehow interested in JC suddenly. hmm... hearing their stories sure can be educational sometimes. haha...

something also happened when we boarded the MRT. while we were walking in the cabins looking for seats, a man with a crutch suddenly just fell on the floor. immediately, my instincts just made me run towards him and check if he's alright. then people in the cabin looked at him and me. Jenna was fanning him with a book and i asked him if he's ok. as COPE had taught me on how to help a fainted person, i tried to clear the crowd so that the man could have air to breath. he kind of had a liquor smell in his breath and i called out for help. thank God the train driver was walking pass outside. so, he radioed for help. with the help of another passenger, i lifted him help and helped him sit on a seat. not long, 2 more station staff arrived and helped the man out of the train. hope he's fine now.

then at night, went out with some of my neighbourhood friends for dinner/supper. had quite a meal. cheese prata and milo dinosaur. really wanted to eat more but i got to control my spending.

so woke up today at about 9am or so and watched 'The Passion Of The Christ'. i was dying to watch this movie for ages already and finally, i got hold of a copy of the movie.(i bought it yesterday before the spelling bee coaching) and i cried watching that movie. it really just moved me to tears. i practically cried throughout the movie. the pain, rejection and humiliation that Jesus felt is really something i myself cannot even stand. it really shed more light into what God is trying to tell me all this time. 'I love you so much that i sent My only Son to die for you so that you may live. that you will not be condemned but be saved through His death'.(John 3:16-17) i feel so happy but yet, i also felt sadness. i think i need to relax more. my mind is having a lot of thoughts rushing through.

i think i better stop here or my brain might explode. a good rest will be great in this time. don't worry guys, i'm alright. i'm just tired and feeling loved by someone who is great in my life.