the past as a stepping stone to move forward

I was on my way home with a church member and our conversation brought some thoughts into my mind.

Looking back at where I was and where I am now, I am really grateful of what God has done and who He placed over me in my life. Who would have thought a boy, who was suicidal and closed up, has grown to someone that is totally different.

During my secondary school days, it was a dark time as I took many turns that turned me from bad to worse. I was worrisome and cynical. Sec 2 was the darkest time where I almost jumped off my secondary school complex. If not for my classmate who pulled me back just in time, I would have been gone for good. Things got even worse as I slipped into depression. everything was dull, life was purpose-less, nothing had meaning to me.

In sec 4, I met a person in an online community and that person brought me to church. Initially, I only go just because that friend invited me. After 2 weeks, I decided to make a decision to be rooted to the church.

Since making the decision to stay in City Harvest Church, things got better and better. I got out of my depression and started to find my purpose in life. My cell group leader then was Irene, she introduced me to Community Outreach Programme for the Elderly (COPE), where I learnt to care for people and to serve in a ministry.

Things didn't end just there, I came under the leadership of Ming Jin who was my cell group leader then and now my zone supervisor. He really taught me how to be a better person in life. Under his leadership, I learnt discipline. Then shortly, I came under Darryl, Ming Jin's wife. She is really loving and encouraging. Also, under her, I learnt to play the guitar for cell group.

Although I was under Darryl for a short period of time, I then come under my current leader, Desmond. He is yet another great leader that God placed over me. He knows how to push me and challenge me in growing and breaking through in different aspects of my life.

Truly, looking back, I'd say I am stronger than who I was in the past. I wonder if I haven't met Him, I think I will not be able to reach where I am now. I truly believe that the years ahead will be great and I will be able to see myself grow to become a even more better person in life.