Reminiscence from the past.

well, i am now currently teaching my brother and blogging at the same time. man, really am having trouble teaching him as i myself have forgotten almost all the formulas and methods that i have learnt. goodness, my brother may have to look for help outside of home already. sigh, really feel that i am not much of a help to him at all.

still, just want to make a post about something that happened in my life while i was working at pastamania in suntec city. no idea why. maybe because after listening to He Yeow Sun's 'wo hai shi hui xiang ta'("i will still think of him", well in my case, her.) led me to post such a weird post in my blog. well, sometimes when i think of her, it really made me blush and also a pity not getting to know her. haha... well, here i go: (this is a wordy post but i wrote it up maybe to keep her in memory?)

it all began when i started working at pastamania on my third day of work. i was working in the morning shift. then she appeared and started working there. at first, i didn't really pay attention to her. only about after working for 2 or 3 days, i seemed to notice that sometimes, she will glance at me during work. and yes, i blushed and acted as if i don't know she is looking at me.

soon, i started to check on her to see if she is looking at me. and most of the time, i did see her looking at me. then, as a guy, of course... weird thoughts ran through my mind. "why is she looking at me? is she inerested in me?"

so, i decided to act fierce to make her stop looking at me. so, whenever she looked at me, i will look at her suddenly and she will always get shocked and look away. my plan worked! haha... BUT, it seems that not long, it backfired and somehow, i began to start looking at her instead.

of course, i soon started to develop feelings for her. whenever i am going to work, i will always try to go earlier than what my scheduled time so that i can see her. in morning shifts, i will always do finish my tasks quickly so i can stand at the dining area to look at her. i did wanted to somehow pass her my number but i don't have the courage to do it. so, i decided to wait for her to move.

then one day, i decided to go to her workplace to talk to her. so, i purposely waited for all her colleagues to have their lunch break then i went over to see her. of course, being shy, i went to her workplace to buy something but, with an ulterior motive.

THE FIRST VISITATION
then when i bought some puffs from her, it was the first time i heard her sweet voice and also, being able to talk to her personally. the first, most lasting impression i got from her was the 'thank you' she said and turned around with her back facing me. i could hear from her voice that there was somehow joy and her smile was of great delight. then it dawned to me that she also have feelings for me.

ever since the first encounter, i always wanted to find ways to try to get her number, know her name or something of this sort. but, i just don't dare... quite a cowardly guy right?

THE SECOND VISITATION
then, i decided to buy from her again. but sadly, she was not alone this time. a female colleague of hers was also there behind the counter. so, no choice, i also kind of liked the food they sell. so went to her workplac again to buy the food there. this time i see something weird. her colleague somehow was like deliberately letting her to serve me. then at the cashier, 'she' didn't dare look at me but kept on looking down. also, her cap was blocking her cute eyes. then i saw her colleague nudging her and whispering 'hey, ask from him la.' but 'she' kept on putting my order into a bag. then, 'she' passed the bag and still looking down. this time, my heart really pounded hard against my chest. i acted like i was curious and asked what is wrong. her colleague just said 'oh, nothing.' than i walked away and left for home. this is also the day really told myself, 'she really does have feelings for me!'

THE FALSE ALARM
then everything kept going like this. i look at her, she look at me. then, there was one day that i heard that someone from the shop was quitting and i thought it was her. so, i went to check if she was quitting. and gooness, she was still working there. it was her colleague in the second visitation who was quitting. also that day, it was the first time i was able to talk to her normally...

after the false alarm, we continued to glance at each other and there was one day she actually tilted her head and smile at me. she really looked cute by doing that. but ignored her. then she smiled and waved at me. this time, i gave a puzzled look and acted as if she was weird. then, after a while later, i smiled at her.

then this continued on until when i was in freshmen orientation camp. in camp, when i am alone, i would think of her and think how is she doing at work. about 1 week after the camp, i returned to work.

about 1 week before my school starts, again there was a false alarm. some of my colleagues ere talking to each other that 'she' is quitting the job but actually, she changed her working days to only weekends. sadly, i really missed her and i really felt sad.

then the worst thing happened, she disappeared. she quitted her job after a month when poly reopens. and there goes the girl that i really had a strong crush on. that night when i found out that she quitted, i went home totally moodless.

oh well, i can't just keep staying in my dreamworld forever. anyway, i can say she is really a nice person. :) i got to move on already.

P.S. to that girl, thank you for this sweet memory. really hope that you will do well in life and if possible, your ex-colleague and us can sit down and have a good chat together again like old times? haha... till that day arrives then. :)