My Life, yesterday and today

Born on the 13th of june 1988 at exactly 12 midnight, this is the time i entered to this world.

i was brought up in a quite loving family. my parents and relatives loved me. although i am loved by everyone in my family, i was always witnessing my parents arguing, fighting over small trival matters. usually they are arguing about money or about taking care of me. there were a few times they argued almost to the brink of a divorce. but the divorce never happened.

as time passes by, my character was built slowly to become someone that was attention-seeking, petty, proud, lustful and vengeful. i was always maligned for things i never did and humiliated by friends, teachers and classmates. i was treated like a slave. a slave for venting their anger on. a slave that would be as obedient as a dog. but they never succeeded, their plans seemed to foil even before they began. very unusual...

then, my greatest regret came. i did something that i really regretted. i succumbed to a moment of folly and sinned. after commiting that sin, my life went into a worser, battered state than it was. i began to close up my true feelings to everyone. never shared my troubles with my family and friends. i soon isolated myself from society.

as i was about to enter secondary school. i finaly came to my senses that i wanted to change for the better. so, i tried to be a more happier, cheerful person. but, i failed to do so. although i behaved better than in the past. i still enclosed my emotions within me, i never showed my true feelings. when i reached secondary 2, i spiralled into depression and was on the verge of commiting suicide. i did once tried to jump off from the school complex but a classmate pulled me back in the nick of time.

i was sent for counselling and for my actions, i made my parents worry eve